| New account.. |
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I have a new account.. it is.. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) dec0ded .. ADD ME! Bitches..
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| :: Quiz Update |
[29 Jun 2005|12:43am] |
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Teh RoXXorS Stats
| Formed: |
28th June 2005 |
| Split: |
15th November 2009 |
| Best Album: |
'Revoked Belaud Cowpeas Earthen' 8/10 in the NME |
| Best Single: |
'Gasting Nomos Monazite' 9/10 in the NME (Single of the Week 12th October 2008.) |
| Records Sold: |
18,289,971 in total (4,974,955 albums, 13,315,016 singles). |
| Reputation: |
Seminal Artist |
| Groupies: |
According to allmyshoes, ladyanathema sucks like an overpowered vacuum cleaner. |
Teh RoXXorS Member Profiles
Single Releases
| # |
Title |
Date |
| 24 |
Opining Levodopa Alumine |
Sep 2005 |
| 12 |
Partan Sluices Buhrs Cannonry |
Nov 2005 |
| 13 |
Parleyed Ordines Waitress Hansa |
Dec 2005 |
| 4 |
Misevent Hinted Monastic Claucht Unrests |
Jan 2006 |
| 1 |
Clots Baseness Filet Fielders |
Mar 2007 |
| 1 |
Bayman Bashaw Reallots |
May 2007 |
| 1 |
Winceys Tacitly Snookers Lovelies |
Jul 2007 |
| 2 |
Connived Lizards Grandams Whooping Duumvirs Winze |
Jul 2008 |
| 1 |
Motel |
Aug 2008 |
| 1 |
Gasting Nomos Monazite |
Oct 2008 |
Album Releases
| # |
Title |
Date |
| 38 |
Oops Upland Dredge Nonet Rumpled |
Jun 2005 |
| 2 |
Earthman Swirl Traprock |
Feb 2007 |
| 2 |
Revoked Belaud Cowpeas Earthen |
Jun 2008 |
northern ireland's worst
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hehehe..
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| :: woo syndication |
[24 May 2005|01:39pm] |
heyheyhey.. If you would all be so kind as to add "arnie_blog" to your friends list as this will allow you to see my new posts without having to goto my website :)!
Thanks to Helen for her wonderful work :P!!
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| :: The end ie NIEee |
[23 May 2005|10:21pm] |
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I will no longer be updating this journal, I will keep it open so I can comment and read other peoples journals, but to read about my life you will all have to venture over too my new website :)!
http://www.remembertobreathe.co.uk/
be happy all
*much love*
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| :: Pictures of denmark + me |
[28 Apr 2005|09:22am] |
Me and the HP scarey man.. as you can tell.. I didnt like him much :P
Me on our stand at the event
Me in tiberly gardens in the centre of denmark..
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| :: Quaterly |
[22 Apr 2005|01:03am] |
Fuck me.. I didn't know they sold Dog in Ireland, granted its only in one bar but MAAAAN.. This bar was amazing, they only sold special or home brewed stuff, one of which was called the "santa claus" which everyone (well, all of the realy drinkers) bought.. 14% vol in a fucking TINY bottle.. It was insane, man.. I didn't finish it because I would of died, so right now I feel ok, I hope I feel ok tomorrow.. but to do that I will need to sleep :):)! hehe..
Tonight was good, it made me realise just how much I would love to live in Dublin, I mean, its so amazing.. I just spoke to everyone lol! I need to do better at this, get a job in Intel Ireland, even if it is as a shitty web developer, it has to be done!
thats all for now, I have my plane home for the weekend tomorrow.. :)! Wooooooooo
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| :: Pictures |
[21 Apr 2005|11:46am] |
Only one photo so far, I will get the rest later :)!
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| :: Ireland Update |
[21 Apr 2005|12:07am] |
So I thought it was about time I gave a small update on my travels thus far. As you know I'm in Ireland training up a new Web Developer. It appears that this web developer is being trained to take over my role as a web developer, at first I was a little worried about why this was happening, I mean hell, I do have 5 months left with the company, its a little early to begin planning my leave =P! I ask my Web PM if I would be working along side the guy, and he said "no, he will need to know everything you know and be as capable as you as you will be transitioned out of your role soon"..
Later on that day I was chatting with the head developer for CIM (coporate internet marketing - the guys who deal with the homepages and public aimed websites). He said something along the lines of: "So Arnie, where do you want to go? India or the US?"
I was of course quite confused by this, till he explained that they needed an internal technical expert to train up on the PNT system of intels web arch.. and I was the chosen man for the job.. in the assumption they can get the needed funding. So, in the assumption the Ireland managers will fund my trip, and my manager agree's that it is a good step for me to take (which I will point out that it is :P).. I should hopefully be heading to Folsom (http://www.intel.com/community/california/folsom/) in CA for a week/two week long training session.. they hope to send me in the next few weeks, pretty much as soon as I am back from Denmark..
So. New job for Arnie that will make him almost indispensable to the company, as I will be the only person in my department with this training and expertise.. but it also means I'll be going to the US.
THATS IF IT ALL GOES TO PLAN!!!
In other news: I just had an awsome night out in Dublin with the head of Finance for my Dept, one of the BO interns and the new RCG BO.. we had a really expensive meal all paid for by Intel.. I wasn't even meant to be going as it was a BO night out, but they rang me and asked me to Tag along.. It was a bit mad as Jack (the intern) ate the biggest meal on the menu, which was a fucking HUGE set of rib's (3 stacks in all).. we have pictures so I should be able to post them tommorrow when I get them back :)!
Tomorrow is our staff night out (well, the Irish staff night out, which I was invited too :P).. back to Dublin again to see some dog races and out for beers! WOO! I love this life, I really do. It feels so nice to be here because I am treat so great. This guy I am training acts like Im his manager, its so damn funny. But essentially I do have "power" over him.. hehe..
Ah well. I will rap this up and say Im smiling but I miss things. Ill be good once I get a decent nights sleep and rest up from that bloody huge meal :)!
Pictures to follow soon :)!
Love to all
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| :: sleeeeeeeepy and worn out |
[18 Apr 2005|09:24pm] |
I don't have a whole lot to report. Just sitting in my room watching anime waitting for my washing to get done so I can pack it. The next 2 weeks are going to be *even worse* than the last two..
Tuesday <-> Friday - Ireland
Fly back Saturday
Saturday night - Capdown gig
Sunday - Sleep
Monday <-> Thursday - Denmark
Friday <-> Saturday - Bath
Sunday - Sleep :P
meh.. im going to go lay down and watch the rest of this anime..
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| :: its the silence that kills me |
[11 Apr 2005|01:36am] |
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 gone.. |
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music |
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silence.. just a hum.. |
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Man, oh man. I've spent weeks here, laying, thinking. Living off 4 hours sleep a night and a glass of water each morning to keep my throat from burning. Waking up every hour drenched from another nightmare, tossing, turnning, thinking and never sleeping again. *sips the glass*.. its not like I cared?
Maybe i was wrong. I can't get the past out of my head, all that shit i said and thought about her. All those times I said "your never going to see me marry".. they where right. In the wrong way, but still just as truthful. I sit here thinking about how, I sent that bitch a butt load of flowers, trying to make things up, forgetting her, and 4 days later she was dead. That bitch didnt even ring to see if I was ok. It burns me to think of the misstakes I've made, the choices I look back on, the time's I have stabbed myself in the back only to realise I'd been there a million times before. Why am I so intent on destroying myself.
I am alone now. You may not think it. But i am. There where times where I could be laying here in wonder, in pain, in thought. I'd know someone cared, but now I know they don't. I spent so long protecting as many people as I could wrap my arms around, as bad as I may have been i gave till my last breathe and till the last drop of my blood had poured. Why now; am i sitting alone.
It isnt just her, its everything. Although i was just learning to forgive her, talk to her, see her as a human again. What about my other "loves". The son i never get to see? I don't even know where he is living. The education I am very close to loosing, through the brain fuckup's of my past. What's worse is the knowledge that this is not depression, this is not self loathing, or anything I can control. I wake up and I goto work, this is something I could not do before. This is simply life beating me, and beating me, then kicking me down some more because it knows that for some reason, I can't be given peace. Not for one day. One hour; one damn seccond so I can shut my eyes and see something other than the pain of the past.
*sips again*
All I want is a hug. A phone call or a smile when I wake up. I spoke to someone tonight, meantioned how I was feeling and briefly why. She told me I needed a woman, and how I couldn't find what I wanted overnight. She thought I wanted so much. All I want, is someone able to smile at the sun.
and maybe cook for me.
2am and counting. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I don't know what to do. That scares the crap out of me.
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| :: a wake up call from the nintendo generation |
[07 Apr 2005|09:18pm] |
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Mm.. hackers is on TV. The girl I work with is doing her dissertation on hacking, and im proof reading/helping. I've just been given a new project looking after some of Intels internal network security.
man, i know what i want.
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| :: never do |
[07 Apr 2005|10:01am] |
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Alice In Chains - I Can't Remember |
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( :never:do: )
Not sure how I'm feeling right now; a little strange i guess. I havent slept in weeks, too much thinking while I lay. The knightmares don't help so much, at least while I'm at work, at home playing games, I can take my mind off things. I bought myself some computer games in the hope I could have more to do on the weekends while everyone in my house was away, it's helped as the games rock, but now I have stupidly no money :(! I did get my credit limit upped to £1500 for my trip to Denmark in a few weeks time, yay! I don't think Ill be going to Ireland though, as I completed a 3 hour training session (I was the teacher) on web development to a new employee over there yesturday; by phone. Man that tired me out :P!
So now Im sitting in work trying to make some new webpages, I have to do some random web testing next week with a group of guys from an external agency, we're trying to pull web inputs directly through HTML, convert it to XML, push it through a server side controller that has the ability to send info VIA STFP.. should be an interesting week :D! Mainly because no one else in the building would stand a chance at getting this working lol, so its up to me. woo.
Guess I should get back to working, got some HTML templates to knock up for the XML form thingy. I'm also meant to be putting on a webcast today, but the whole thing has gone tits in the air :P! Noooooooo :(!! *cries and goes to work*
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[04 Apr 2005|05:08pm] |
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HEHEHE.. can you tell I was bored at work today?
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| :: Annoyed |
[01 Apr 2005|04:53pm] |
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My god, in this tech world why is trying to buy something online SO FUCKING COMPLEX!! *burns online ordering systems*
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[01 Apr 2005|12:00am] |
Intel Ireland: 18th - 23rd : Training new web developers
Denmark: 23rd - 29th : Leading Intel's ISN pressence at corporate event (I GET TO MEET SEAL!!!)
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| :: alice i love you. |
[31 Mar 2005|09:27am] |
Ahhh sitting in work, feels like I've been here for hours when really I only arrived just over 30mins ago. Currently Alice is playing on my MP3 player, as much as I love alice I haven't felt like listening to them recently, they're far too depressing *turns it off*.. I'm not feeling so good again today, a little spaced, light headed and a bit confused. I don't really know whats causing it, maybe its just the thinking I've been able to do since I've come back, or maybe its just the new sleep pattern kicking in? Who knows.. I'm not a big fan of it though.. Mm this song was playing earlier, and I felt the need to post its lyrics; Mostly because they rock, but also for other reasons.
30th of April
Seems like yesterday
Bought a house above the ocean
where our kids would laugh and play
I called you from Paris to tell you that I wrote our names on the observation deck of the Eifell Tower
Remember those nights
Playing summer wind in the jukebox of the bar we used to go.
We made out in the bathroom and you walked me to my house
And I tried to convince you not to go home.
If only, I had more time, I'd take you where you wanted to go
Italy isn't the same without you here
If only, I had one wish, I'd want a million trillion lifetimes that I could spend with you, fall in love with you again and again, Again.
First of November, 1998
I was thinking of what to say when I would go
Denice come over to my house, cause you're the one for me
We'll drink cheap wine and watchfor shooting stars.
Remember our first apartment, our couch was never big enough for two
Still we'd fall asleep in each others arms and wake up on the floor, now looking back it was made for me and you.
If only, I had more time, I'd take you where you wanted to go, Japan is really nice this time of year
If only, I had one wish, I'd want a billion trillion lifetimes that I could spend with you, fall in love with you again and again.
Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. lots of humming today too.. I know Im going to update later, so I'll cut this one short. Then again, I don't have much else to say. I hope I start to feel a little better later on today :(!
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| :: *listens* |
[30 Mar 2005|11:23am] |
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music |
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New Found Glory - The Story So Far |
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everything i say has meaning; even if you can't hear me.
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| :: sleeping never feels good enough. |
[30 Mar 2005|08:55am] |
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Blink 182 Dump Weed |
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I just got into the office.. its funny how people treat you when they think your in pain, its nice to know people care I guess, but it all feels so pushed. I went to Grahams last night after work, stayed there all night till I came home and slept. Its not like I dont go round his house often, because Im there most weekends, but it felt like they where trying to protect me without even asking how I was feeling.
Its not easy being alone.
Ben asked how i was this morning, thats the first time he has seen me since I've been back, and he is the only person who has actually asked me how I am, how my family are. Its strange as I thought he would of been the last person to ask, just based on how he reacts to other situations. I guess my judgements where wrong..
Well, I guess I should get to work, not that I have a lot to do right now. Im not sure if people are hiding work from me, if there just isnt much on, or if Im being a little blind and havent really gotten back into the flow of things. Mm. I hope I feel better today than I did yesturday, I don't think I could cope with another day like yesturday.
:me
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